Second Month/ Eighth Week

So It's officially two months. Can't believe I haven't seen you guys for a complete two months. Sorry for anything that I didn't reply during the week. I was fasting any social networking such as Facebook, Twitter, and etc. I was surprised at how much time you can use to just use it just to be still and quiet in the presence of the Lord. No music. Just be quiet and still and enjoy His presence and what He's been doing. Even if you're in the storm of life, enjoy God's presence and you will see through the storm there's God in the midst of it.

This week was all about transparency. About being humble. The meaning of humility is to be known for who you really are. No hiding behind our walls of life. As humans we lean more towards rejection than acceptance. As an example... When I finished a performance there will be compliments coming, but one time a person criticizes it and guess what stuck to me? The criticism. As humans we can be a people pleaser sometimes and that distracts us from who we're really supposed to please. We don't need to please anybody other than God and to please God doesn't take much. Just take off your time and just dwell in His presence and do His will.

During classes we were challenged to reveal our darkest secrets/sins that we've done in the past and haven't dealt with. Imagine that! I was feeling squeamish, but I eventually came out in the front and confesses what I've done. It felt good to just take off that mask that's been in the way of seeing God face to face, but another thing I learn about confession and forgiveness is that it's not a one-time thing. It's a process and an on-going thing. We should ask ourselves every time we have the chance what the Holy Spirit wants you to fix in your life or what to deal in your life. No matter how small it is, ask for forgiveness if you feel convicted. It might be a small thing to you, but it's big enough to bug your conscience.

I was alone and was asking the Holy Spirit the same thing and one that stuck out to me was to ask forgiveness to my brother and to forgive him. I have a jealousy towards him how he does so good in school and I don't at all. I also asked for forgiveness towards him for not being a good example as a big brother and it would be my biggest regret for not being a good big brother. And good thing he forgave me. What a relief.

We had a homeless friend of ours who receives Jesus Christ. We never really evangelized to him, but the way we live our life was enough to show God's love to him. It was a good experience to just witness that God's love can change somebody's life through our life. God is just so great for doing that.

A lot has been going on for me and I would appreciate it if you guys would keep me in your prayer. Thank you so much for everything. The emotional support especially. I love you all and I hope you all have a blessed week.