Twenty-Second Week

Well here it is... The last blog of my life in San Francisco. Starting tomorrow debrief will be happening and my team will be coming next Tuesday. But anyway... This week has been slow and I like it that way. I'm able to process everything. Even though some tough things are happening but the friends over here is also helping me not by simply telling advice but also helps me to get closer to God. I'm finding comfort with God.

I've also been troubled about my future. The unknown... That's what people call it. I call it planned by God. One of the quotations that has been a huge part this week is, "When God solves our problems it means that He knows that we trust His abilities, and when He doesn't it means that He trusts in our abilities." So yes... God is trusting my abilities and I'm trusting in Him.

It's all a matter of trusting again and I wish you all an amazing valentine's day. If you don't have any to share it with. The Father above have valentine's day everyday for you. I will see you in two weeks. Miss you all... Can't wait to see you guys.

Twenty-First Week

I would love to say that this week has been amazing. I'm learning to become a leader. The only downside of the week is the thoughts of me coming back to SoCal. It's not that I hate it, but I felt like I've become so attached to San Francisco and everybody is already making me feel like I'm a part of them, but in the same time I know that it's time to move on and if I really am called to be here; God will make a way.

Outreach on Saturday was different than usual. Instead of doing evangelism, we're giving back to the community by services. It's just like the normal hot chocolate ministry where we talk and give to people, but this time we're serving them just like Jesus did. The thing that I'm relearning is also that service is also a type of worship. Worship is as good as you want it to be. What I mean by that is that you only appreciate God as much as you know Him. If you really love Him, then your worship will feel different than the usual singing. There's a difference to be IN His presence and FEELING His presence.

Ministries everyday has been encouraging also. Relationships with people are also growing and now it's easier to tell them about God. Praying has happened quite often too. Thank you for all the support and please keep praying for me.

Twentieth Week

So the new DTS has arrived and I'm glad. It means new friends and also just to be blessed and and be a blessing. This week is one of those week that I need simply to reflect what God has for me. One of the staff here got a prophetic words for me which greatly encouraged me. He said that I'll be a leader and in the process of that I need to be more focused on God rather than the past. He said that I will need to stop on focusing the fear of mistakes and it's time to be a new vessel for God. The amazing thing about that prophetic words is that it's also a confirmation from God of my new role as just a worship leader. I've never been a leader my whole life... More like I never want to be a leader. I'm the type of person that usually simply follows order and I'm fine with that, but I guess God's not content with that. So this is another step for me to glorify His Kingdom.

Also the Ellis Room is in a transition to try new things and it's been rough for the staff. So I hope for your prayer to goes out to them. A lot of staffs and including me has been sick and it's by the grace of God that we can still continue on our ministry.

Three more weeks... And I'll be home. I'm excited but in the same time I still want to stay here a little bit longer. I seem to be attached to San Francisco and its people here. I'm simply waiting for God and His plan for me. Thanks for all the prayer and I terribly miss you all. Pray also for the team in Thailand and Vietnam.

Nineteenth Week

This week have been such a great blessing. I've been building some good relationship with the homeless people here. This week I felt like my heart was rebroken for the Ellis Room. It was just mentally draining to completely comprehend them. I'm just thankful that I still have a family and someone that I can trust. It was hard for them to simply trust anyone.

But overall it's just great to be able to keep building my relationship with them. And lately the ministry have been easier for me too. I'm starting to really get out of my comfort zone and to simply talk to people out of nowhere. Especially prayer station really challenged me, because you're only standing there with a sign "Prayer Station". There's no hot chocolate to give to start conversation, but it surprisingly went well and some people were surprised of why I'm doing this kind of thing.

The DTS has started coming this weekend and the class officially starts on tuesday. I was chosen by the DTS staff to be the worship leader for DTS. I'm nervous but in the same time also excited. It's another challenge that I'm looking forward to.

Thanks for the support and I'll be seeing you guys in exactly a month. I'm still excited to what else God has in store for me here. Keep praying for me! Miss you all and love you. God bless!

Eighteenth Week

Hi there! I'm doing my blog early since last week I was so tired and I fell asleep early. So here it goes: So ministry has been great. I started doing a tract ministry. It sounded boring at first, but it's actually really fun. The point of the ministry is not to just give tracts to some random people. All the time during ministry I kept having a conversation with God to who should I talk to. Some of it went well and some... Not so well, but hey no fear for failing.

The Ellis Room (the place where homeless people go and hang out) has been violent lately. We kicked more people than we usually do. It sucks but it was needed. So I urge you guys to pray also for these people and the staffs that are working there, including me. But on a brighter note, I made more new friends in there also. I felt so honored to know their past and their story of how they ended up being in San Francisco.

Another bright note... I turned 18! Thank you for all the birthday wishes. (My first time celebrating birthday away from home). One of my friends made me a cake that looked like rice, and it tasted really good! So I'm not that lonely and I'm grateful for my friends here for the things that they've done. With another year, a new responsibility comes along too.

In conclusion, I would say this week has been challenging, but was really good. I enjoyed the challenges and enjoy my walk with God. Thank you for all the support and the prayers. Keep on praying for this city and I hope you have a blessed week. Love you all and miss you. God bless.

Seventeenth Week

So... That was a total adjustment week for me. I had to completely adapt with doing my ministry alone without a partner. At first, it was nerve-wrecking, but as days go by, I got used to it. I'm sorry I didn't post this blog last night. I was so tired and I fell asleep right away. So I hope I redeemed myself with this post.

It was a different scene. Not only in the ministry, but everything seems to be more challenging and I hope it stays that way, because I want my last one and half month here to be spiritually challenged so I can grow more into God. And lately I've been doing lots of research of the life of servanthood and being a disciple. I've known the words for so long and heard it countless times, but I don't know why, but these words has been stuck to this week. I asked myself why I serve God. People said that it's because He's great and almighty. That's true, but that's what people say. What do YOU say? Servanthood and being a disciple are similar towards each other and it seems that you can't tell the difference even when the words are completely different. Right now, I just want to know deeper the meaning of the life of servanthood and being a disciple. I'm finding a meaning that I can relate to, not what people told me.

Another word that's stuck to me is humility. My meaning of humility has been changing almost every time. It's something that's so unknown in my understanding. It's as if the more I know it, the more I don't know it. I don't know if that makes sense, but I hope it does. So... As time goes on. I can conclude that it's a new quest that I'm excited about.

Thank you for your prayer and support. I love you all and I hope to see you all soon. God bless you.

Sixteenth Week

Happy New Year to all of you and I hope your resolution will be good. As for me... Resolution is a hard thing. I'm still asking God what does He want me to do in this 2011. I want something specific. I'm trying to become like Him more and more. I want to be reflect His image to this world.

So this week has been kind of dull. Ministries won't really start until next week because most of the staffs in the base are on vacation and also my friends have left for Thailand and Vietnam. Keep them in your prayers please. I'm pretty bummed that I don't get to go, but I'm still looking forward for my next two months here in SF. Not only I'll be doing my ministry alone, but I'll also will be depending on God most of the time, because I won't have a partner like usual. Keep me in your prayers for that too.

I moved into a new room with somebody from German. He's a great cook, but I love him because he has so much insight about the Word of God. I'm also excited for that. I guess my 2011 will be starting as a great year. I have people that I can count on to keep me strong in my walk of faith with God.

Thank you for the people who have visited me here in SF. I'm really happy that you guys take your time to see me. Thank you for the support. I love you all. Let's make 2011 a year to be made more like Him. God bless.